I have not been keeping you updated on Hailey! Bad Heather!
My sweet sis has had one full round of chemo, it kicked her butt. She was in the hospital 3 days following the chemo treatment for 6 days. She got 2 blood transfusions, including platelets. She has ONE more round of this kind of chemo (we think) and then its on to out patient chemo. This will be good for her because the chemo will not be nearly as hard on her as the type she is currently taking. The question is, will it keep killing the tumors? We don’t know yet. Just pray that the doctors know what they are doing and that Hailey will keep her Spirits up in order to fight. The great thing is that her quality of life will improve dramatically with out patient chemo. She will be able to be at home more often, spend more quality time with Colleen and James. She misses being at home with her stuff, TV, dogs and family. Sometimes it just rips my heart out. Sometimes it rips her heart out. Sometimes it rips James’ heart out. We are all doing the best we can, but watching someone’s life be taken over by cancer is (in Hailey’s words) No Bueno!
We are all learing lessons, getting closer to God and to each other. I know that God is working toward the Good for all who love him. Its amazing, we still love Him, and love Him even more through this. Sometimes we just need to stop trying to make sense out of it all and just trust Him. That is SO hard sometimes! I know that we are only here for a blink of an eye compared to the eternal heaven that awaits us – but why does it have to be so hard? A dear friend of mine thinks maybe its to cleanse us for our jobs in heaven. I don’t know, but that sounded pretty good to me. Or, just stop trying to make sense of it in our computerized brains and just trust in our hearts that its all working for the good for those that love Him.